Chapter 5: The Mother I Barely Remembered
My mother had been dead for nine years.
At least, that was what I had always been told.
Her name was Danielle Carter. I remembered pieces of her rather than a complete person: the smell of vanilla lotion, a soft laugh, the warmth of her hand on my forehead when I was sick.
I remembered a yellow dress she wore in a photograph on Dad's dresser.
I remembered her singing along to the radio while she cooked.
But most of my memories were fragments, and fragments can be shaped by whoever tells the story afterward.
Dad had always said she got sick suddenly.
He'd told me she fought as hard as she could, that the doctors tried everything, and that there was nothing anybody could have done differently.
When I was younger, I'd asked him why he never talked about her.
He'd hugged me and said some memories were too painful to revisit.
I had accepted that answer because I loved him.
Now Yolanda was standing in our kitchen, using my mother's name like a weapon.
"Ask your son what he knows about his mother.""
Dad placed both hands on the table.
"Don't bring Danielle into this.""
"Why not? She's the reason we opened the account in the first place.""
My breath caught.
Tiana looked at me.
I couldn't move.
Dad's voice dropped.
"That account was meant for Malik.""
"And I kept it going when you couldn't even bring yourself to look at the paperwork.""
"You were supposed to manage it.""
"I did manage it.""
"You withdrew almost twelve thousand dollars!""
Yolanda pointed at the document.
"And I spent years keeping this family together while you worked double shifts and came home too exhausted to do anything but sleep.""
Dad shook his head.
"That doesn't give you the right to take money that belongs to my son.""
She laughed bitterly.
"Your son? He's my son when he needs food, clothes, electricity, and a place to sleep. But the minute there's money involved, suddenly he's only yours.""
The words hit me harder than I expected.
I hated that she had chosen an argument that made my existence sound like a burden.
I stepped into the kitchen.
"Stop talking about me like I'm not here.""
Both adults turned.
Dad's expression softened immediately.
"Malik, go upstairs.""
"No.""
His eyes widened slightly.
I had never spoken to him like that before.
"I'm tired of being told to leave every time somebody mentions my name.""
He looked as if he wanted to argue, but then he pulled out a chair.
"Sit down, son.""
I remained standing.
"What happened to the money?""
Dad glanced at Yolanda.
She looked away.
He took a long breath.
"Your mother left you money when she died.""
I felt my knees weaken.
"What kind of money?""
"Life insurance. Some savings. There was a small investment account, too.""
"How much?""
Dad rubbed his hands together.
"I don't remember the exact amount anymore.""
Yolanda let out a short, disbelieving laugh.
"Of course you don't.""
He turned on her.
"Not another word.""
She closed her mouth.
Dad faced me again.
"After your mother died, I couldn't manage everything alone. I was working nights, trying to raise you, paying rent, and dealing with paperwork I barely understood. When Yolanda and I got married, she offered to help organize your mother's financial affairs.""
"And you let her?""
"Yes.""
The admission came quietly.
I stared at him.
"Why?""
"Because I trusted her.""
"Did you know about the account?""
"I knew some of your mother's money was being held for you. I believed it was safe.""
"Did you know she'd taken it?""
His eyes fell to the paper.
"I knew there had been withdrawals. I didn't know the full amount until recently.""
Yolanda stood.
"That is not fair, Reggie.""
He ignored her.
I pulled out the chair and sat.
"How recently?""
"About three months ago.""
My stomach twisted.
"Three months?""
Dad nodded.
"Your mother had a policy that paid out after her death. There were also funds from a savings account. Some money went toward funeral expenses and bills. The rest was supposed to be set aside for you.""
"How much was the rest?""
"I don't know the exact figure.""
"Then how do you know the account was meant for me?""
He looked at me with pain in his eyes.
"Because I remember signing the documents.""
I thought about the photograph Tiana had sent me.
The crooked signature.
The document at the bank.
The folder with my name on it.
"Did you sign the document I saw?""
"I don't know which document that was.""
"Did you sign papers allowing Yolanda to take money out of the account?""
Dad swallowed.
"Some withdrawals may have required my approval.""
"Did you approve them?""
He looked down.
"At first, I approved payments for your expenses. School supplies, medical costs, things like that. Yolanda said she was handling the paperwork, and I trusted her to keep records.""
"And later?""
"I stopped signing anything I didn't understand.""
Yolanda gave a sharp laugh.
"That didn't stop you from spending the money when it suited you.""
Dad turned toward her.
"I spent money on my son's needs. Not vacations. Not jewelry. Not whatever else you've been hiding.""
Her face went pale.
I leaned forward.
"What did Mom want the money used for?""
Dad's expression changed.
He looked toward the hallway, as if he could see through the walls into the years he'd spent avoiding this conversation.
"She wanted you to have a start in life," he said.
"She wanted you to be able to go to college, buy a car, or have money to fall back on if things got difficult.""
I thought about the laptop.
The one I'd planned to buy with $410.
A laugh escaped me, but it wasn't a happy one.
"My mother saved money so I wouldn't have to struggle, and I spent the summer carrying crates because I thought I needed to earn every dollar myself.""
Dad reached across the table.
"Malik—"
I pulled my hands away.
"How much is left?""
He didn't answer.
"How much?""
"There's very little.""
The room went still.
I stared at him.
"How little?""
"I don't know the current balance.""
Yolanda crossed her arms.
"Because we used some of it to keep this family afloat. Your father lost overtime hours. The car needed repairs.
The rent went up. There were months when we were barely making it.""
"You told me the $410 went to groceries.""
"It did.""
"And the rest?""
She looked at me.
"Do you think food grows in the backyard? Do you think bills disappear because you have a sad story about your mother?""
Dad stood so quickly his chair scraped backward.
"Enough!""
Yolanda stepped back.
He pointed toward the hallway.
"You do not speak to him that way.""
She stared at him, then picked up her phone and walked into the bedroom.
The door slammed.
I sat frozen at the table.
Dad lowered himself into the chair across from me.
"I'm sorry," he said.
I looked at him.
"For what?""
"For not paying closer attention.""
I wanted to accept the apology.
Part of me desperately wanted to believe that this had all happened because he was exhausted, because he trusted the wrong person, because life had become too complicated after Mom died.
But another part of me remembered every time he'd told me not to argue with Yolanda.
Every time he'd asked me to be patient.
Every time he'd promised to make things right later.
"Why didn't you tell me about the money?"" I asked.
"Because I didn't want you worrying about things you couldn't control.""
"I couldn't control them anyway. She took it.""
He closed his eyes.
"I know.""
"Did Mom leave any instructions?""
Dad opened the manila envelope and removed another sheet.
It was an old letter, folded into thirds. The paper had yellowed at the edges, and the ink had faded slightly.
My name was written across the front in my mother's handwriting.
Malik.
I stopped breathing.
I'd seen her handwriting only a few times, on birthday cards Dad had kept in a drawer.
He placed the letter in front of me.
"I found this when I was going through the old files last night.""
"Why didn't you show me before?""
"Because I was afraid of what it might say.""
I looked at him.
"You were afraid of a letter from Mom?""
His eyes glistened.
"I was afraid I'd failed her.""
For a moment, I couldn't speak.
Then I unfolded the paper.
The first line was simple.
My sweet Malik, if you're reading this, I hope your father has kept his promise.
I read it again.
Then I looked at Dad.
"What promise?""
He stared at the letter.
"I don't know.""
I continued reading.
My mother wrote about wanting me to have choices. She wrote about the importance of education and about not allowing anybody to make me feel guilty for needing help. She said that money could disappear, jobs could end, and people could disappoint me, but my future should never belong to someone else's decisions.
Near the bottom, she'd written something that made my hands tremble.
I asked your father to make sure the money is protected until you are old enough to understand what it means. I trust him to do that. And I trust him to tell you the truth, even when the truth is difficult.
I lowered the letter.
"Did you know she wrote this?""
Dad shook his head.
"No.""
"Did you promise her you'd protect the money?""
He pressed his lips together.
"Yes.""
The answer was barely audible.
I looked at the letter again.
My mother had trusted him.
I'd trusted him, too.
And somewhere between those two promises, he had allowed somebody else to decide what my future was worth.
I folded the letter carefully.
"I'm going to find out what happened to the account.""
Dad nodded.
"I'll help you.""
"I mean all of it. Every withdrawal. Every document. Every dollar.""
"I understand.""
"Even if it means reporting her?""
His face tightened.
For a second, I thought he would tell me to calm down, that we needed to handle things privately, that we shouldn't drag the family into trouble.
Instead, he said, "If somebody took what belongs to you, we'll have to deal with that.""
It wasn't the strongest answer I'd ever heard.
But it was the first one that sounded like he was standing beside me.
At 4:41 p.m., Mr. Price from the bank called.
He asked if my father was with me.
Dad put the call on speaker.
"Yes," he said.
"I'm here.""
"Mr. Carter, we've reviewed the information you provided. We cannot disclose all the details over the phone, but we found a record associated with the minor's information that requires further verification.""
Dad sat straighter.
"What kind of verification?""
"The account documentation contains an authorization bearing the minor's name. The signature appears inconsistent with the identification provided. Our security team is reviewing it.""
My heart hammered.
"Can you tell us what the account is for?"" I asked.
There was a pause.
"I can confirm that the record references a custodial arrangement. However, because Malik is a minor, we'll need the appropriate documentation and a verified adult representative to proceed with certain requests.""
Dad nodded, though the banker couldn't see him.
"What do we need to bring?""
"Your identification, Malik's identification, and any relevant account documents you have. We'll explain the available options when you come in.""
"Was money withdrawn?"" I asked.
Another pause.
"I can't confirm specific transactions on this call.""
Then Mr. Price added, "There is one thing I want you to understand. If you believe your signature was forged or your identity was used without authorization, please make that clear when you come in.""
The call ended.
Dad sat back.
I looked at him.
"She used my name.""
"We don't know the whole story yet.""
"But the bank found something.""
"Yes.""
I stood and went to my room.
For the first time, I wasn't thinking about getting my money back.
I was thinking about what my mother had tried to leave me.
And whether the person who had promised to protect it had helped somebody take it away.
That evening, Tiana knocked on my door again.
She entered carrying a thick envelope.
"I found something," she whispered.
"What?""
She closed the door behind her.
"Mom told me to destroy this.""
She placed the envelope on my desk.
Inside were bank statements, withdrawal slips, copies of identification documents, and several pages covered in my stepmother's handwriting.
One document was dated eight years earlier.
At the top, it read:
*CUSTODIAL ACCOUNT — BENEFICIARY: MALIK CARTER.*
Below it was the original balance.
$23,600.
I stared at the number.
Tiana turned over the next page.
May you like
Her face drained of color.
"Malik," she whispered, "I think we just found out where the money went.""